Regaining balance in my life
Posted 2nd November 2009 at 11:11 AM by mushcat
After a few hours sleep I have been up the rest of the night on the computer and finishing another painting. I feel quite accomplished in getting so much artwork done, but I also feel I have lost the balance in my life which may be contributing to my insomnia.
I have good intent: to keep the house clean, to provide a goo meal for my husband every day, to exercise, to lose weight, to be healthier, etc. but I think I am really undermining myself with worry.
I have two craft shows coming up this weekend and next. I have put a lot of time and money into the things I am going to sell. I worry about what I have to sell, I worry about a good set-up and display without investing more money, I worry if I am going to sell anything. All this worry keeps me awake at night despite industrail strength sleeping pills. The insomnia leads to more migraines and getting a shot that knocks me and the migraine out so I lose a day that I could be doing productive things. It's all a very vicious circle.
I try to relax with baths, soothing music, etc. but I never seem to be able to shut off my brain. In the meantime healthy things like prayer, exercise and good diet, and enough sleep fall by the wayside.
There has got to be a way to restore balance into my life. I know one way is to let go and let God, but it's so much easier said than done.
Hopefully these craft shows will be a success but I need to regain my sanity before then.
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I have good intent: to keep the house clean, to provide a goo meal for my husband every day, to exercise, to lose weight, to be healthier, etc. but I think I am really undermining myself with worry.
I have two craft shows coming up this weekend and next. I have put a lot of time and money into the things I am going to sell. I worry about what I have to sell, I worry about a good set-up and display without investing more money, I worry if I am going to sell anything. All this worry keeps me awake at night despite industrail strength sleeping pills. The insomnia leads to more migraines and getting a shot that knocks me and the migraine out so I lose a day that I could be doing productive things. It's all a very vicious circle.
I try to relax with baths, soothing music, etc. but I never seem to be able to shut off my brain. In the meantime healthy things like prayer, exercise and good diet, and enough sleep fall by the wayside.
There has got to be a way to restore balance into my life. I know one way is to let go and let God, but it's so much easier said than done.
Hopefully these craft shows will be a success but I need to regain my sanity before then.
:confused:
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Sounds like you're trying to achieve perfection here. I have good intentions too and find it impossible to keep up with all the demands I place on myself. The thing is I'll bet no-one else expects quite so much of you and it sounds like you're being too hard on yourself, which is just setting yourself up for failure.
I can only say this to you cos I've done the exact same thing to myself. Try not to feel overwhelmed with everything and concentrate on one thing at a time, and try to be happy with slightly smaller achievements. If baths and music aren't working try a walk or some other form of relaxation instead.
"Relaxing" baths don't work for me cos the kids disturb me or my husband suddenly loses something like the remote control and I get no peace till I go find it
I once went to a craft fair to sell painted glass bottles and sold nothing at all. Almost felt like doing a runner when the woman came round to collect my £20 fee
but I was 6 months pregnant at the time so couldn't imagine running off like that Anyway I hope you do well and have far more luck than I did xxPosted 2nd November 2009 at 08:26 PM by LizzieM
